I could hear voices from my surrounding when it’s past midnight. Past midnight is the time when my brain stops functioning rationally, when I start to count my flaws over & over again, when my suicidal thinking is at its peak & when I don’t remember who am I before. I just want to hide from people but I’ll get lonely & I hate that I get lonely when I’m not around with people even when they make me feel sick, reckless & unwanted.
